school work during the day left me feeling very tired at night.” It was a serious situation for a man who had devoted every spare moment of his life to keeping himself busy. Enryō felt he had achieved the goal for which he had been aiming since the beginning and wanted to make a clean break. Once, he even suggested to acquaintances that it might be better for the school to be dissolved and turned into a center for seminars. The problems surrounding the university led to the criticism that “the Philosophy Academy is not the private property of Inoue Enryō or the Inoue family,” and even to mistaken claims that the university belonged to one particular branch of a Buddhist sect. Enryō did not even attempt to deal with all of the misunderstanding,” and in April 1905 he established a kindergarten. In the summer he departed To-kyo to go on a lecture tour of prefectures of Shizuoka, Yamaguchi, Nagasaki, and Ibaraki, which was also intended as an effort to restore his physical and psychological health. However, regarding those days Enryō said, “I felt a great deal of mental fatigue and often spent my days in a state of idleness, some-times drifting into pessimism and feeling as though nothing was go-ing my way.” A doctor diagnosed him as having neurasthenia, “a weakness of the nerves,” but around November he fell into a state where “the desire to avoid regular school duties grew stronger every day.” Eventually, in December this progressed to the point that while out in the garden he twice felt that he was “about to have a stroke.” His family began to worry that something might happen to him. 150
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